My Birthday.

With every breath that I had in my life, I never feel that I can replace all the sin that I had done with every kindness that I done in my whole life. May Allah guide me to keep earned your Favour in the future. Ya Allah, forgive me for all sins that I had done to you in this 18 years on your Earth. And I also want to ask forgiveness from everybody whether he/she knows me or not especially my auntie, Che Ha. I know that I had done a big mistakes to you in last Ramadhan. Everyday,every moment I'm keep thinking what should I do so you can forgive me. I don't know what else I can do for you. I had do my best so you will forgive me. Whatever happened to me, you'll still be my "mom" in my life as long I can breathe no matter what happened. Without you, what will happened to me, am I will be in Maahad Tahfiz Sains, am I can get victory in every exam,can I get my driving lisence, or can I  eat your lovely cake?? Ha2, I don't know. I know that this the Qada' Qadar that was arranged for me. After Che' was passed away, I never feel that I had lose my mom because you always be with me even since I was only 3 years old. You had give everything that you had to me everywhere, anywhere. I never feel alone, when I need something, you will always be there no matter how hard for you to help me. You had give all such feelings as a mother to me and I will never orget that. I don't know why I cannot say by myself " Can you forgive me??" I don't know why I don't have such strength to say like that to you. I only want everythin comes back to normal. Che ha, if you read this, I hope you can forgive me. And I hope Allah will bless you wherever you are with your beloved husband, Ayah Pa. Lastly, forgive me, mother.....