We see again after I have retired for a long time from writing in this blog. I always intend to do it,but each time I want to do it, there must be something else that I must do first. Ha4. Today I'm not so free actually,but I think I want to share something with all of you. As you know, last week I have got my MUET result and you know what? I got only Band 3. That's mean my hope to continue my degree in Bachelor of Education in Teaching English as Secondary Language may be not accomplished because to further my study in that degree, I must fulfill 4 requirement. First of all is 3.0 and above pointer in CGPA. Second one is Band 4 in MUET exam. If those two we have passed, we must go through MedSI test and lastly mock teaching in front of Lecturer from Shah Alam. As you can see, because of my achievement in MUET only Band 3, I cannot continue in that degree. right now I don't know wher sholud I go to further my studies. Based on my observation, if I want to continue my ambition to be a teacher, In UPU, I can ask for teaching for Information & Technology teaching at UPSI at Perak. But if I still want to be an English teacher, I should choose to go to Maktab. but if I go there, other pupils there that were same age with me will be my senior. Hu3. A little bit ashamed on me but for me, there was no need to be ashamed in our journey to gain knowledge because for those who ashamed, it was a waste. This is the only time that we must collect and grab all the opportunities that we had right now to absorb all the knowledge that we can learning it wether formally or not. For me, maybe Allah have other plan for me and want me to do something. He is the only God and he knows what is the best for us. His plan cannot be challenged and cannot be postponed. Although I feel so desperate and depressed,but I will try my best to stand up again and keep going on my life so that I will be the person that Allah wants me to be someday. Maybe this is the test from Allah to test my patience and faith. I hope Allah will give me more strength to go through it. Subahanallah. Alhamdulillah. Allahukabar. Right know, I'm still thinking which is the best for me to further my study. Which one actually? I was so confused. That's why right know I always be with my computer. It is the place where I tell him what has happening to me. Computer knowledge is my hobby. I very love it,but to make it as my work, i'm afraid someday I will hate it,not more the place I release all my tensions on it. So, whatever happened, I leave it to Allah but I will still do my best, tawakkal and doa' and whatever happened, i leave it to Allah because it is the best for me.
Almighty,
I ask your help,
I ask your forgiveness,
to all my sins that I had done,
Whether it is small as germ,
or it is big as mountain,
Show me the truth path,
Don't let me fell into darkness,
where I cannot even see the escape door,
to the light that will lead me to a better road,
that will lead me to a life,
That was blessed by Allah....
Oh, Allah,
You're the only one I ask help and forgiveness.
Amin....
This is the wallpaper that I made myself. For me, it's not so perfect but enough to be put in my notebook's wallpaper. If you want to have it, just take it. Ok. That's all for today. Hope we can meet again. May Allah bless you.
Wassalam.
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